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I’m a lot more mopey about her leaving then I feel I should be. She deserves this vacation though.
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Sarah will be leaving for her trip day after tomorrow. She’s going on a Disney cruise. She’ll be gone for 11 days.
She made me an in-depth to do list to follow while she’s gone so I’m hoping I get everything done that I’m supposed to. Still, I’m stressing about it. That’s what I do best.
Stress. At least tomorrow is Magic night so I’ll have company here to keep me distracted while she packs.
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It’s easier to stick with MTG because I have people that are doing it with me.
We’re to the point where we have a Wednesday Night Magic Fight every week. We even made a new friend playing, Justin. Him, Blake, Devon, Cheree, Nick, Sarah, and myself play every week. Well Justin and Blake cancel a lot, but the rest of us are here every week. Sarah, Cheree, Nick, and I play at least one game every single day. I said we had it bad, lol!!
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Well it’s been a while. I found a new obsession, Magic The Gathering. Yeah…. I’ve got it bad. :O
I’ve been getting pretty good at it too. Everyone plays except Nikki. We spend all day building decks and playing them.
I really want to keep up with this book, it was really helping me sort myself out, so we’re going to try and get back into the habit of writing in it again.
I’ve noticed that when I like something and start doing it (ex: Magic or this here book you hold in your hands) I become obsessed. I go all out hardcore.
It’s like I can’t just pick something up and fiddle with it, no I have to go all out and put my heart and soul into it and ignore all other hobbies until I run out of steam. So far I still have a lot of MTG steam
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Well we are almost there so I’ll wrap this up. Sorry if it’s a bit messy, wrote it all during Nick’s driving. XD
I’ll let you know if anything interesting or groundbreaking happens during the appointment today.
Next Cope Book Page; the pain, but also the release of blood was like releasing pressure and a rubber band Doesn’t do that. It took a long time to break out of it and a lot of setbacks, but setbacks are not failures.
I think it can help this time though. Because it’s different now. I think the urges and more out of frustration then a need to release.
I have always taken my frustration out by directing it at myself. By either hurting myself or by putting myself down. I can find a way to blame ANYTHING on myself.No matter how much or how little control I had over it .